Letter To My Daughter.
Dear daughter. I love you more than you know.
These days, when I hear ‘you don’t like me,’ it quickly breaks my heart into a thousand pieces.
Why do you say that? And what have I ever done to make you feel that I don’t like you?
When you are sick, I want to make you well.
New Children's Book Releasing This Summer!
When I started thinking about developing a children’s book series late 2017, I jotted down a list of possible stories and where I thought it might go. And I knew I wanted it to reflect and pull from our own experiences as a family and Ben’s personal experiences, honoring him and his time here.
Every Time I See a Child Smile, I Think “This is why Ben died.”
For any mom who loses a son, you wonder ‘why’? Why did this happen? Why me? Why us? What could I have done to keep him well? And the worst question of all that comes from a place of guilt – is there anything I could have done differently to deliver a different outcome?
For me, I believe the answer is no.
When Ben Comes Home
Mommy, when Ben comes home, I’m going to show him this book.
You’re such a good brother, I would say.
This conversation or something very similar would happen more times than I could count. And probably for at least the six weeks following Ben’s death. This was just one of many questions or innocent thoughts I had from my then three-year-old son about his brother.
